Last day of the year already!! Yes, today is the last day, to be exact, another hour will be the end of 2006! Welcome 2007! Hope its a year of prosperity and peace. It was like we celebrated millenium year recently and now is 6 years past...

Think people are now having fun waiting for the countdown. While some are blogging like me, summarizing their achievements for 2006 and resolutions for 2007. Oh, I have no resolutions at all. never had one, no point having one....just hope for good health for joel and family and everyone. Hope for more $$ to tie me thru the year.... Hope my favourite numbers open (haha, you know what i mean)...hope my hair grow faster for the CNY....

Its a year of Ups and Downs...that's life, i guess! Next year will be a tough year for us...cos we got to settle Joel's tumor problem. So scared that it grows bigger and bigger....really have to face it though we hate it so much. Seriously, if Joel is normal like other kids, he should be in his PSLE this year....just too bad, dint get a chance to go thru the anxiety like other parents do. Maybe its a blessing in disguise for him, no need to go thru the stress of taking examinations. Oh no, stop it! I am crapping again....but i like to talk it out sometime.....cos i am worried i get blown out of proportion one day....

I better stop my "if this" "if that".....just hope that all things turn better....really hope 2007 be a year full of wonders and surprises.....full of miracles and joy......lets pray!

HAPPY NEW YEAR to all!!

30th dec - eve of the end of the year! School re-opening next wednesday...my family coming back from vietnam on 1st Jan...

Last nite was chaotic...exhausted. Joel did not sleep the whole night at all...think he is feeling unwell again. Supposed to poot poot but having inserted the "help", he still did not let go any. Jim kept awake until 5am. Poor thing, he reached home from work about 1am...and got to stay until 5am before he took his rest. He wanted me to sleep first so that I got energy to take care of him today. So i slept at 1am to 5am to take over him.

Joel finally slept around 6am +.. until 12 am. We were so worried that if he does'nt sleep enough, he will get into seizures again...unluckily thank goodness he did not. He woke up in a happy mood and had his breakfast around 12.30 noon. Jim is off today. 2 gu as usual left in the morning for her shopping spree.

Hot weather today! I stayed at ah ma the whole day so didn't get to sun the clothes. It started pouring in the evening, not too heavy. Joel refused to take his dinner, so he had light snack (cereal with bread) before he goes to bed. Hope he sleep well tonight.

Jim left for his ex-boss house warming party at yishun tonight. Think he must be very exhausted too having not enough sleep last nite. me too, very tired liao. Think going to fall asleep any time liao.

Good nite.

29 Dec...2 more days before 2006 come to an end! Time flies unknowingly. Very frightening isn't it? What have we accomplished for the past 363 days? Is there any major events that worth remembering?

To me, all days involved Joel, be a joyful or hurtful. Though he can't vocalise to express his happiness, the smiles on his face told me so. Each time he hold on to us tightly, trying to be affectionate to you, you know he is happy. When he rubbed his head against yours, its so wonderful. It conveys the love for each other. I just love to hug him, a sign to tell him that we love him very much. So whenever there is a chance, dun feel shy showing your love to your children too! Its so good to be hugged...and loved!

The weather is very good today...managed to sun all the clothes that have been hanging around for days (not fully dried). I have to iron dry the clothes but it is still not better than the power of SUN. Meanwhile, clean up the house bit by bit, dump away trash that has been sitting there for years, get ready for the new year to come.

Recently i recalled not having seen this old man staying at 612 for quite some time. He would always smile and wave when he sees me. Though he is about 80+, he look quite strong, always strolling at the void deck or go opp buy things. Then i asked around for him (hoping not to get the bad news) and true enough, he left few months ago already. Though I hardly know him, somehow, it affects me. Life is so full of uncertainty. today you see the person, tmr he is gone. So live to the fullest each day, cos you may not know what happen next.

Esp for the loved ones around us, treat each day as if the last day. Then you will be able to fully express your love and concern. Not until the person is gone.

Arrhh...what happen to me? Preaching again? No lah, just some year end thoughts only....sigh...

anyway my family is coming back from vietnam soon....next year (sound very long, 2 days' time)
Very fast hor......think 1/2 month at vietnam is too long liao........should go europe hor. looking foward to seeing them back.

27 Dec 2006 - For our Vonvonster
This day, 22 years ago, a little baby girl was born (by TC)
She is the first grandchild in the family.
Everyone dotes on her like treasure..maybe we never had a kid in the house.
Tai ma, ah ma, ah yi-s, gu-gu and many more.

She was taken care by my mum, who is also her ah ma.
SL and I went thru the names from A to Z, and settled for YVONNE.
Followed by the direct translation Yiwen (not the naughty mozzie).

This little baby ger did not look a bit cute at all;
I got to cuddle her in my arms when she refused to sleep.
Swing her until she slept. I was only Sec 4 then.

As days went by, she has grown to be so adorable,
Our ah ma, who is her tai ma loves her dearly.
Two of them will sit and watch by the window.
She is such a sweet tongue girl, greet whoever she meets.
Even neighbors like her too!

On her 1st day to school, I brought her there.
We had a tug a war game there. The teacher on one side, and me the other side.
Vonvon was in the middle screaming her lungs out. It hurts so much.
Finally I lost, to the teacher. She was in the room, still crying.
While I hung outside the room, crying too!
All the parents left after the children went in, except me.
I waited at the nearby void deck worrying for her,
Soon, days after days, she was a happy child at the school.

1988, tai-ma left us. Kenneth and Nerd were born the same year.
Vonvon was 4 years old while I finished my A levels too.
We were very closed cos I stayed with her family most of the time.
Be it Pandan garden or Yishun, I was there with them.

This girl has always been so sweet. Never make us angry at all.
I started working and dating, did not spend much time with her then.
I cannot remember her schooling days at Aitong nor Anderson.
Still, she was a trouble-free girl who cares a lot for my mum, her ah ma.

Soon she went into JC and university and completed her final year.
Times flies, she is already a big girl, ready to be in love,
This girl, just like our own kid, is already an adult unknowingly.
Maybe she is the first grandchild, maybe we love her a lot,
We still worry and care for her.
Maybe she is close to all of us, maybe she knew how to cheer us,
Maybe that is just her, maybe that is our dearie Yvonne.
HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY!! Stay cheerful all the time.

Today is Boxing Day, 26 Dec. Halo, dun think its day to box here box there ok! Nothing to do with BOXING (Mohd Ali type of boxing)....

Historians say the holiday developed because servants were required to work on Xmas day, but took the following day off. As servants prepared to leave to visit their families, their employers would present them with gift boxes.

Despite its name, it has nothing to do with pugilistic competition. Nor is it a day for people to return unwanted Christmas presents. While the exact origins of the holiday are obscure, it is likely that Boxing Day began in England during the Middle Ages.

Church Alms Boxes
Another theory is that the boxes placed in churches where parishioners deposited coins for the poor were opened and the contents distributed on December 26, which is also the Feast of St. Stephen. As time went by, Boxing Day gift giving expanded to include those who had rendered a service during the previous year. This tradition survives today as people give presents to tradesmen, mail carriers, doormen, porters, and others who have helped them.

Above are just some of the info extracted from the web sites....

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it started pouring early in the morning.....looks like its not going to stop for the day. Jialak! the nurseries along Upper Thomson Road are going to flood again. they have already lost so much money during the flood last week.

Today is 25th Dec....MERRY CHRISTMAS to all! Looking forward to a peaceful and prosperous 2007!

good weather for xmas...at least got sun! good weather for me too....happily sunning the clothes. So while jaga-ing the clothes, update my blog at the same time. Oh no, Kenneth said that TC fell in the toilet while ah ma's leg cramp....alamak, why like that? Mum's leg cramp is expected cos past few days was a lot of walking and travelling....but TC? Why she fell in vietnam toilet? Hope she is ok.

Jim brought home some gifts last nite...(of cos not for me lah!!). they had gift exchange in the office. budget is $10. so he bought a waist pouch (these days very popular among youngster, like a fishing bag like that), cost exactly $10. you know that he got in return...a miserable 8cm x 5cm display item with picture in a damn old box (obviously its not newly bought)! The funny thing was this guy who supply this gift happened to draw the gift from Jim. In other words, they both got each other gifts...think he felt paiseh too! My point is, at least make a point to prepare something appropriate and within budget lah, dun anyhow grap anything from home that has been lying there for years. No meaning right?

I remembered there was once I got the same experience too! I got a photoframe in a gift exchange game. Actually i did not know who was the one who bought the gift. But inside the photoframe, there was a card from dunno know wishing my colleague HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! Sigh....

anyhow...just some of xmas remarks....

BTW, do you know which xmas carols most MUM & DAD like most???...guesss lah........dunno? wanna give up? OK, tell u the answer! Its......................its........................its............................
SILENT NIGHT!!

haha...this morning kenneth tag me from Hoi an while vonvon tag from dalat....see the technology these days are so intelligent liao!! The 2nd group has reached dalat while the first group are going to join them today in dalat. Walao, dun tell me they are going to go thru again what they have been to the first few days....the vege farm, the valley of love etc???

Think Vonvon's daddy & mummy would like the vege farm in dalat..oh ting and wei jun, stick to your family, dun lose your way ok. Unlike Kenneth, Lennard and vonvonster, they are old enough to track their way back.. ;-)

Vonvonster is going to celebrate her xx birthday in vietnam...so nice! muack muack!! Think ah ma is going to tired out her legs and buttock after so many days and hours of travelling...is she ok. Hi kids, make sure she takes her medicine, ok.

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the first group reached dalat liao but the second group not back ffrom dalat tour...they gonna meet tonight....walao, 14 of them in the hotel!! Kenneth says they are going the ambush the hotel to gif the 2nd group a surprise when they come back from the tour......gonna be fun man!! also going to be chaotic!!

Really hope 113 unit number open tonight..then it will be jie(1) da(4) huan(1) xi(3).....at least cover the cost of the trip.....i also got a feeling that it will open soon...tolong tolong, if not top3, starter also buay pai!!

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raining whole day in singapore....orchard road is closed for x'mas party. Hmm... should be RAIN party....think some are celebrating xmas in a big group while others candle lit dinner....the families one stay home for turkey feast....the lonely ones eat maggie mee...sob sob.....

Oh yes, i still got my xmas log from MARRIOT Hotel. Yes, its MARRIOT hotel. very nice ok, at least not that pathetic.....

OK, lets hope for good news tonight!!

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Walao! My heart pain so much!! I wanted to buy vonvonster birthdate 1227 n 2712 but somehow did not. I truly came out starter...there goes my $$$, at least also got $250. Sigh :-(
These days haven't been lucky wif 4d...either missed by a draw or 2, or number missed by 1 or 2....sigh....

Today is saturday...BT & TC family flew to Vietname to join the rest..dunno they reach liao or not?? Kenneth has not responded today...

It rained early in the morning..was hoping to catch a longer sleep since the weather is so cold to sleep. Alamak, joel woke up around 7.30am. No choice, got to pull myself up from the bed...he is back to his happy ways...had his breakfast without fuss. Jim got to leave early for work, so i brought joel down to ah ma house.

6gu, 8gu came ah ma house 2day, 8gu baked cakes again...oh yeah, my christmas log that i redeem from marriot hotel is still in the fridge, untouched. Its a small pce of chocolate mousse cake, very nicely done. 2gu doesn't like choco cake, so looks like jimmy and i got to split it! What a sin, isn't it?

It christmas the day after tomorrow....but no xmas mood leh! When we were staying at Woodlands, we had this medium size xmas tree that we displayed every year. I was always the one to set up (its fun dressing up the tree) and jim was the one to keep it....that tree came out from the store room altogether 5 times only (for the 5 years that we stayed there). When we moved house, we gave it to our neighbor cos our AMK flat is too small for the tree. Furthermore, we hacked off the store room so there isn't space to keep the tree. During those years (from 98 to 2002), Chee Wai and Yong will come over our place for a simple xmas party. Now they are grown up and have their own lives already.

Sigh...jus some of the christmas nag.....life is getting boring, so is christmas! Where is santa? Is there really got santa? Or its just some fairy tales? Now to me, christmas is just a sign that year has come to the end....get ready for the next year! Haiis....boring life. How i wish i can be in vietnam with them now.....sigh.....

DONG ZHI
Today is Dong Zhi, the thanksgiving of the Chinese calendar. "Dong Zhi" literally means "arrival of winter". Coinciding with the winter solstice, it is an occasion for the family to get together to celebrate the good year they have had. Tang Yuan is cooked and eaten to symbolise unity and harmony within the family.

ORIGIN
Winter solstice signifies the beginning of winter. The sun is at the Tropic of Capricorn and this results in the longest night of the year for those living in the northern hemisphere. The festival began as a farmer's festival to celebrate year-end harvest.

CELEBRATION
Dong Zhi is a time for family reunion. Tang Yuan, sweet soup of glutinuous rice flour balls, is indispensible during this festival. "Yuan" (literally meaning "round") signifies "yuan man" (complete) and Tang Yuan means "tuan yuan" (family reunion). Eating Tang Yuan is symbolic of family unity and family prosperity. For good luck, families prefer to have some pink tang yuan to mix with the white ones.

Since my parents are on holidays, i went back to 113 to pray the ancestors and goddess of mercy, I bought 2 tubs of tang yuan from the stall. Opened the windows to let the air ventilate the house after a week of complete closure. Fed the fishes in case the auto feeding machine doesn't work. As I stepped near the 3 pathetic fishes, they swam to me...as if asking me for food...so is the device working or not...should be or else they wouldn't have survive until now. Anyway, i manually fed them more food, take is as a christmas gift lor!

HAPPY DONG ZHI to all!! I wonder they eat tang yuan in vietnam or not??

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Since Jim if off today, decided to 2 things: 1) Haircut 2) go redeem the xmas log from Singtel. Left home at about 4pm and went to the salon downstairs. I haven't cut my hair for almost one whole year. The very contradictory is each time when my hair grew long, i will tend to shorten it ( i mean real short, not just trimming). Then when the hair is short, tell myself that i will keep long hair liao...sigh...this is woman!! Anyway, i order for real short hair...without 2nd thought. Who cares my face look a big piece of pizza...i just want it short and simple. Phew!! Its like tonnes of weight off my head...hmm...not very bad looking lah.

Headed for Marriot Hotel to have the log redeemed. Walao! Orchard Road is full of PEOPLE!! So crowded that you can hardly move as you like....you just got to follow the crowd and the speed. Actually i tot of giving myself a good time by hanging around until night time to see the xmas lightings. After seeing the crowd, forget it man! Come home better!

Cooked porride for dinner with toufoo egg...hmm not had, simple and nice......Jim is playing with Joel now while i molest the combie...i scare later i will be too tired to post.

Oh Kenneth has not responded today!! Dun be lazy, Kenneth!!! Hurry up! update me!!!

Kenneth finally responded....got worried cos since he reach dalat, he has been updating their activities...so when he stopped postin, i got a little concern. They are now in Hue and will be moving on to Hoi An.

Hue is located in Thua Thien prefecture and is in the central part of Vietnam. Located 660 km from Ha Noi and 1080 km from Saigon, Hue has always been considered the fulcrum of Vietnam's two rice baskets, the Red river delta and the Mekong delta. Hue became the name of Vietnam's most well known ancient capital because of the local mispronunciation of the word Hoá in Thuâ.n Hoá.

Hoi An is a small town on the coast of South China Sea in central Vietnam. The former harbour town of the Champa people at the estuary of the Thu Bon river was an important trading centre in the 16th and 17th centuries, where Chinese from various provinces as well as Japanese, Dutch and Indians settled down. During this period of the China trade, the town was called Hai Pho (Seaside Town), during the French occupation. Originally Hai Pho was a divided town, because across the "Japanese Bridge" used to be the Japanese settlement. The bridge is a unique covered structure built by the Japanese, the only known covered bridge with a Buddhist Pagoda attached to one side. Today, Hoi An is still a small town, but it attracts a fair number of tourists, also being a well established place on the backpacker trail. Many visit for the numerous art and craft shops and tailors, who produce made-to-measure clothes for a fraction of the western price. Several internet cafés, bars and restaurants have opened along the riverfront. Some popular evening venues, especially with western visitors, are Tam Tam's restaurant and bar and the Mango restaurant.

2day started 2 rain again. According 3 the news, it has reached the highest record of heavy rain in the past 28 years. It sun in the morning and started raining in late afternoon. Good news from Princess Yun....she got into CHIJ St. Nicholas Sch. Her first choice. Ah ma also happy for her cos the school is near our place.

Tmr is Dong Zhi (time to eat tang yuan)...its 3 days before Christmas based on the ang moh calendar. there isn't a fixed lunar date for it. that's wat i just got 2 know.

Tmr i plan to drop by 113 to check on the house, make sure the mozzies are not having a fun time without the owners around. also bring some tang yuan for prayers.

see ya.

haven't heard from Kenneth today...dunno they reach the destination safely! Long journey...so many hours of coach and train...dunno mum can take it or not. Heard from the news today that dunno which party of Vietnam got bird's flu and hope its not the places that my family are visiting.

Finally the rain stopped! morning sun was good. The whole night rain makes the road very wet. of cos lah, u think i would let the sun off so easily? no way, man! sun the clothes before the weather changes again...i dun want to keep ironing dry the clothes. It won't smell as good as the sun efforts in drying the clothes.

True enough, it started raining in the afternoon again but not as bad as the past few days. Luckily i kept all the clothes already or else i can't imagine. Joel slept quite long in the afternoon. he had slight cough and maybe the syrup make him drowsy.

Princess Yun was so bored at home, nothing to do and was trying ways and means to agitate someone, or rather make that someone talk to her, play with her. Oh my goodness! She is a damn gambler (maybe she watched too much Chow Yun Fatt or Andy Lau movie), she loves playing card game...black jack, xx, xx what ever you name it. Too bad i can only play black jack. And to add some fun to the game, we decided to invest a little. 10 cents per game. And i LOST to her, owe her 40cents! We were making so much noise hoping to wake Joel up and that boy simply ignore us and continued with his dream world. Finally woke him him at about 5pm. Washed him at 6pm and had dinner at about 6.45pm.

Yun and bro went to the library with their dad after dinner. She insisted that she couldn't see my tag board from her combie and also from the library combie. I really dun understand why. Since Kenneth can see it and tag me from Vietname, why can't she see it. So i decided to go the cbox and update and reinstall....hopefullly this time it works.

Kenneth, where are you all now. you havent been tagging me today, so a bit worried....come on, update me, pls!

Hi there! Since i dun have the chance to travel with them to Vietnam, i can also take this opportunity to learn about the places they are going. Here is some info to share:

Da Lat - City of Eternal Spring
Da Lat city is probably one of Vietnam's most well known vacation destination. Since the turn of the century, Da Lat has been the vacation spot for well-to-do vietnamese and foreigners. It is the unofficial honeymoon mecca of Vietnam. Located on Lám Viên (Langbian) high lands, part of the greater Central high lands of Vietnam (Cao Nguyen Trung Phan), the city is 1500 m above sea level and is 305 km from Saigon. The name Da Lat originates from the hill tribe people in this region. It literally means Stream of the Lat people.

Nha Trang
The city of Nha Trang is becoming more popular with the tourists in recent years. Yet, with a population of 300,000, Nha Trang still retains its small town atmosphere. This resort town is well known for its miles of beach and the friendliness of its people. The city is flanked by nearly ten kilometers of prime beach where the water is warm year round. The average temperature in Nha Trang is 26 C. Nha Trang also has the lowest level of humidity in all of Vietnam.

Today, Nha Trang ranks among the top of all beaches in Vietnam. Nha Trang is 1,287 km south of Hanoi, 624 km south of Hue and 442 km from Ho Chi Minh city (Saigon). Nha Trang has several famous islands. Most notable are Hon Tre, Hon Yen, Hon Rua and the Spratly islands. The name Nha trang is a Vietnamese pronunciation of a Cham word Eatran or Yjatan. Ea or Yja means river, and tran means reed. According to the locals, there once were a lot of reeds along Ngoc Hoi river. The river winds its way through the town. Ngoc Hoi was later renamed Nha Trang river. Another theory of the origin of Nha Trang's name has a more amusing twist. Long ago, in this part of the country, all the houses were made out of the reeds and mud gathered from Ngoc Hoi river. The only house that was made out of bricks were the house belonging to Dr. Yersin, a French immunologist who made his home here. The house itself was painted prominently white and could be seen by vessels coming from far away. Once there was a foreign vessel passing by. The captain asked his translator where he was. The translator not knowing where they were blurted out Nha` tra('ng or white house in Vietnamese. The captain duly noted on his chart Nha Trang. Because most foreign languages do not make use of tones, the captain's name for this part of the country stuck.

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Oh! Weather is wet in singapore. It has been raining for 2 days non-stop....in true, i mean NON STOP!. It was pouring heavily all night and day. A lot of places are flooded. There was a hugh tree uprooted by the strong wind and rain near my place. I have to practically iron all the clothes in order to dry faster.....

Joel is getting better and better liao. Thank goodness! Appetite improved and back to his chirpy ways.

Ciao ...will come back tonight.

today's weather is extremely wet...it rained all day (drizzled a little and poured heavily the next minute)....dunno is Dalat raining too?? Hope not cos it's already very cold (8 deg)...Kenneth hasn't update today. Think he must be having a fun time whole day thru. Kenneth, take care of your grandmother ok, her legs are weak...so the cold weather might add on to her pain.

Joel is much better today. Finally see his smile...makes my day! Today Chee Wai celebrated his 21st birthday at ah ma house. He did not want to have the celebration actually. His mum insisted so he got no choice. Da gu did all the cooking (mostly vegetarian food)...they are all well cooked. Again, the house was full of people....when it comes to celebration. Hardly got space for movement. Joel ate well for dinner.. think the food was too good to resist.

It was still pouring when we returned home. Joel was too tired today...so now he is in bed zzZ liao. Me too.

Good nite!

Jim is off today. Joel is much better today too! So happy! His appetite is much better liao. So relief!! 2gu went shopping again....she can shop for about 12 hours.....really pei(4) fu(2) her!. Princes Yun went out with her gang while her bro went KL with his dad. Ah ma house is quiet today.

Weather was very uncertain today..sudden hot sudden cool. Drizzle a little on and off while the sun remains scotching hot.....think the world is getting upside down....

A piece of good news from TC today.....our Vonvonster passed all her Uni exams. This is the final year for her. Really happy for her.....afterall all her hard work and efforts finally paid off. I know she must have gone thru extreme stress for this exams. Hope she can find something that she likes to do when she graduate....no hurry lah..enjoy a little first, k.

Mum and family are in dalat now... not an easy trip for her. Got to fly to Ho Chi Minh first then take a few hours of coach from there. Dunno whether she can take it or not. Anyway, heard that is really a nice place for holiday and the weather is very cooling. How nice I could join them now???

So tired now...gtg....

Thank god! Joel is much better today. The family doc came back from holidays and we brought joel to see her this morning. My goodness! can't imagine the crowd after a week close of the clinic. Anyway, joel seems to be better after the medication.

last night was chaotic. I was in total daze. Joel was groaning in pain in the evening. It was really non-stop and tears were rolling from his eyes. We knew he must be really in great pain or else usually he won't react like this. Since he couldn't vocalise, we really had no clue where exactly is he feeling uncomfortable. I was really worried that he might be having severe headache (cos the tumor in his head can lead to severe headache). 2gu suggested that we send him to hospital but i knew that even if he goes to hospital, those junior doc wouldn't know what's wrong with him too. Luckily after taking a tab of painkiller, he was much calm down.

You know those few hours was so painful to bear...esp seeing his tears rolling down. Joel is a strong-willed boy, he doesn't shed tears unnecessary. So this time roung he must be really in great pain. Jim rushed all the way home from work. Think his heart must be beating fast on the way back. Sigh....tough life. Think is about time we look into his tumor problem. Running away from reality is going to put more pain on the boy. We will let joel go for another MRI to see how the tumor has changed. Really pray that it vanish out of the blue.

This whole week has been a tough one since joel fell ill last friday. Mentally stressed up! Hope he gets better and we can bring him for swimming. I mustn't let myself down...got to hang on there for Joel. This is your life...you got to face it. Whatever you owe in your past lives got to return this life. No way to change it. So face the fact and move on!!!!

Almost 1/2 of my family going Vietnam today.....they will only be back next year....sob sob...can't join them.....very sad! I actually yearn to join them in the tour... think it's going to be very fun to be out of singapore with the family (guess to be crowd can lead to arguments too!). Anyway its really a rare opportunity to travel in such a big group. The first patch left today (including mum & dad, bro & family, & LY). The second patch will leave 23 Dec (including TC & family, Bt & family). Hope mum & dad can take this opportunity to improve their relationship a little bit. I really dun want them to come back quarrelling....

My feelings are really mixed! Happy to see them going for tour in a family together but sad that i can't join them. If not for my situation (you know what i mean), i would have join them in all occassions. I love with my family, i love to play with the kids. Yet the world is simply so contradicting. the more you love to do something, the more the situation stops you from doing it. Dunno when got the chance to join them in a tour again??

Think mum miss me too! B4 she left this morning, she has me to drop by her place. buy 4d for her during her absence...and passed me $100 in case i got $$ problem. Dunno when can i stop her from worrying for me....think she feel very heartpain that i cannot join them for tour too! Anyway, wish them have a fun time there!

Joel is slightly better now but not fully well yet. Appetite is still bad. He just want to drink water. and at times just take cereal. no rice for him. can't sleep well at night. Our little prince, get well soon. Each time you fall sick, mummy & daddy fall sick mentally too! Our hearts ache so much each time you suffer. How i wish someone invent a machine that can transfer the pain from one person to another....or better still stop the pain by pressing the button??

Its end of the year again! Everywhere is filled with holiday mood and Christmas joy.... i have no feeling. no joy for me. no life for me. i wonder what's my purpose in life? Why am i breathing for the sake of breathing? Why am i going thru the same life day after day? Why my life is filled with pain and anxiety more than joy and happiness? Think the only joy i have is when i see joel well and healthy. When i see him smile...that's happiness. Maybe that's the limit given to me in terms of happiness! Oh oh...here i go grumbling again! better dun spoil other's mood.

See them again next year 2007!!!

Wow! So long nvr post liao....Yun said I am a lazy blogger...she went korea for a week and came home liao i still haven't posted anything??? :-) She has verbally warned me if I am not going to post, she is going to hack into my account liao....haha! Oh! She is capable of doing that, dun ever doubt her capability....so i better key in something or she is going to be on my back again...

actually few days ago i did wrote something real long... a summary of what's happening in the those days where i did not post. but then hor, when i tried to publish it, it said technical error and apologise for inconvenience caused. I tried to rescue it but too late liao.... not draft was gone too! So angry....din re-do!

anyway, 4get about it! Wish Ly belated birthday on 1st dec, francis on 10Dec and yes, 5 dec, my wedding anniversary. I got married this day 13 years ago.....wow! long time hor? can't imagine time flies soooo fast...that we hardly realise.

Joel has been sick for days liao...very sad! started with stomach wind and was on antibiotics. since he is not able to talk, the doc has given something that can kill the germs for all areas. Guess the medicine was too strong for him and he ended up vomitting and diarhea (anyhow spell). the worst is he started getting seizures....very bad ones. a few episodes in a day. poor boy...he hasn't had anything in his stomach the whole day (other than medicine). I inserted valium into his anus and hopefully it helps to stop his seizures. Now he is still in deep sleep. lets pray he gets better when he wakes up.

This school holidays haven't got the chance to bring Joel out.. really dun want him to spend the holidays falling sick.

ok, gtg. going to check on him every now and then.